And I Hate The Phone/But I Wish You'd Call

Joshua Radin - The Fear That You Won't Fall

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
 Behind me air's getting thin but I'm trying
I'm breathing in
Come find me
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all

Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall
It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
 Can't get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than

And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
Can't get my mind off of you

And I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel
 This way
 And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

When  a priority becomes an option, yknow things have really really changed. This feeling of always wanting, and always needing - it's beginning to wear me out and honestly I don't know how much longer I can hang in there.

It's true I've really found/Someone like you

Michael Buble - You and I

Here we are
On earth together
It's you and I
God has made us fall in love
It's true I've really found
Someone like you
Will it say
The love you feel for me
Will it say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I...
I am glad
At least in my life
I've found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I
In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I...

It never seems perfect/Until It's Too Late

Beauty In Walking Away - Marie Digby

A light shines off
In the distance
A pale flickering glow
How many times
Do I have to dream
That I could be there
The time is here
And she won't be
Waiting for me
To find the easy way out
I've lost count of the days 
That were wasted

There's an answer
In the sound of a train
There is wisdom
Past the bridge on the bay
There's a lifetime 
Through the fog 
In the rain 
There's a beauty 
In walking away 


I float on the streets 
That are empty 
Take the path 
That the wind only knows 
Tonight is the last time 
That I'll ever be here 


There's an answer 
In the sound of a train 
There is wisdom 
Past the bridge on the bay 
There's a lifetime 
Through the fog 
In the rain 
There's a beauty 
In walking away 


It's never quite simple 
It's never that safe 
It never seems perfect 
Until it's too late 
It's never the right time 
To find a new way 


There's an answer 
In the sound of a train 
There is wisdom 
Past the bridge on the bay 
There's a lifetime 
Through the fog 
In the rain 
here's a beauty 
In walking away

Always On My Mind

Always On My Mind - Michael Buble

Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said & done 
I just never took the time 


But you were always on my mind 
You were always on my mind 


Maybe I didn't hold you 
All those lonely, lonely times 
And I guess I never told you 
I'm so happy that you're mine 
If I made you feel second best 
Girl, I'm sorry I was blind 


You were always on my mind 
You were always on my mind 


Tell me, tell me that your 
Sweet love hasn't died 
Give me, give me one more chance 
To keep you satisfied 
Satisfied 


Little things I should have said & done 
I just never took the time 


You were always on my mind 
You were always on my mind 
You were always on my mind 
You were always on my mind

'Cause maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me

Spell - Marie Digby

Spotlight shining brightly, on my face
I can't see a thing and yet I feel you walking my way
Empty stage, with nothing but this girl
Singing this simple melody and
Wearing her heart on her sleeve

And right now I have you, for a moment I can tell I've got you 
'Cause your lips don't move 
Something is happening 
'Cause your eyes tell me the truth 
I've put a spell over you 

 Beauty emanates from every word that you say
You've captured the deepest thoughts
In the purest, and simplest of ways
But you see, I'm not that graceful, like you
Nor am I as eloquent
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me

 And right now I have you, for a moment I can tell I've got you
'Cause your lips don't move
Something is happening
'Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you

And all my life I've stumbled
But up here I am just perfect
Perfect as I'll, ever be


And right now I have you, for a moment I can tell I've got you
'Cause your lips don't move
Something is happening
'Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you

I think there's a really thin line between harmless flirting and falling head over heels in love with someone. Or rather, in like. The person who caves in, and develops the feelings for the other first, loses.

On a totally unrelated note, I think I ought to gain proper control of my life. Make the right decisions, choose wisely, and not spiral downwards any longer.

I hate how random and incoherent I am sometimes. 1am on the night of 1st June, time to sleep early. Here's to a healthy lifestyle.

&I will try to fix you

Fix You - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed 
When you get what you want, but not what you need 
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep 
Stuck in reverse 


 And the tears come streaming down your face 
When you lose something you can't replace 
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

 Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

 And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

 Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

 Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

 Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

 Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

也許未來 你會找到 懂你疼你 更好的人

 我不願讓你一個人 - 五月天 

你說呢 明知你不在 還是會問
空氣 卻不能代替你 出聲
習慣 像永不癒合 的固執傷痕
一思念就撕裂靈魂

 把相片 讓你能保存 多洗一本
毛衣 也為你準備多 一層
 但是 你孤單時刻 安慰的體溫
怎麼為你多留一份

 我不願讓你一個人 一個人在人海浮沉
我不願你獨自走過 風雨的 時分
我不願讓你一個人 承受這世界的殘忍
我不願眼淚陪你到 永恆

 你走後 愛情的遺跡 像是空城
遺落你杯子手套和 笑聲
最後 你只帶走你 脆弱和單純
和我最放不下的人
也許未來 你會找到 懂你疼你 更好的人
下段旅程 你一定要 更幸福豐盛 

我不願讓你一個人 一個人在人海浮沉
我不願你獨自走過 風雨的 時分
我不願讓你一個人 承受這世界的殘忍
我不願眼淚陪你到 永恆

 你說呢 明知你不在 還是會問
只因 習慣你滿足的 眼神
只是 我最後一個 奢求的可能
只求你有快樂人生 

只求命運 帶你去一段 全新的旅程
往幸福的天涯飛奔
別回頭就往前飛奔
請忘了我還 一個人

 I don't know why but.. Listening to this song and watching the video nearly brought me to tears :( Is it weird if I say that this is one of the saddest songs I know, but also my favorite?

 I guess the feeling of knowing that you're forgotten by someone who means the world to you really sucks. When you're the only one who's still holding on to the old promises, reliving the old memories, and laughing at all the things that happened in the past.. I don't think anything else hurts more than that. When you're barely making it through every day without that person, but yet the person is doing so fine without you. To know that you're so easily replaced.. Hurts, doesn't it?

 "When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. 

 If there's a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loudly your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a trashing, panicking, trapped, great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love; no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent, you're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it." 

 -If You Could See Me Now, Cecilia Ahern. 

 I blogged about this before and I just felt compelled to blog this passage again.

 It's so difficult sometimes.

我確定

品冠 - 我確定

心 , 感謝認識你
你 , 充滿我的心
愛情好神奇 有時不需要言語
生活裡默契讓我們都清晰
心 ,如果沒有你
我像無頭的蒼蠅
未來跟過去比
我相信一定有趣
你是我心上不完的風景
此時此刻我確定
我確定永遠都愛你
我決定你的決定像信仰一樣的堅定
此時此刻我確定
就算窗外雷聲驚天動地
現在身邊那個人是你 我就安心


心 (心) ~ 感謝認識你
你 (你) ~ 充滿我的心
愛情好神奇 有時不需要言語
生活裡默契讓我們都清晰
此時此刻我確定
我確定永遠都愛你
我決定你的決定像信仰一樣的堅定
此時此刻我確定
就算窗外雷聲驚天動地
現在身邊那個人是你我就安心

此時此刻我確定
我確定永遠都愛你
我決定你的決定像信仰一樣的堅定
此時此刻我確定
就算窗外雷聲驚天動地
現在身邊那個人是你我就安心

嗚 ~ 我確定 ~

I Don't Want To Talk About It~

Feel so old listening to it, but a nice song nonetheless!

I Don't Want To Talk About It - Rod Stewart

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

So, the finals are in two weeks. I guess it's time to start studying hard again. Can I just take a moment to complain about how mundane my life this semester has been? Study in school, study during breaks, study after school, come home still have to study. I feel like I've barely done anything I really want to do, feel like I'm committing social suicide sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if it's all worth it and then I look to my future and I realize how things would be so much easier if I have a University degree, and I tell myself it's all worth it. Pain is temporary, GPA is forever. And so are my future. Right?

Hate how much of a routine my life has become. In one year and two months time, I'll possibly be sitting in an office, squinting at the computer screen and typing away furiously at the keyboard (lol, isn't that what I'm doing now? Minus the office and the squinting, but still.) I hope I get my dream job, please please please let me get my dream job.

Sometimes when I feel depressed about my life, how it has become, and how mundane and unsatisfied with it, I think about the least fortunate around the world. I think about the African children who lack proper nutrition, and I find myself thankful that I'm being well-fed (too well-fed, actually) and well-clothed. I think about the poor people living in slums, and how they're so uncertain about their living conditions, and I find myself thankful that I stay in a private property, with an air conditioned room to sleep in every night. I think about the people without opportunities - opportunities to study, explore their talents, and travel abroad, and I find myself thankful that although my education comes at a hefty price tag, my parents are able to afford it. I find myself thankful that my parents allowed me to take up the piano when I bugged them about it, and although I haven't been playing for long, playing the piano will always be one of my passions. I find myself thankful that I have traveled pretty much of the world - I might not have been to Europe, or Middle East or whatsoever, but I have had the opportunity to visit America, 9000 miles away. I think about orphans without parents, and I find myself thankful for a pair of loving parents, although I might not think that way sometimes. I bug my dad about getting me a car but some people can't even walk. I have a couple of branded/luxury items and then I think about kids who don't even have clothes for themselves. When I complain about how my computer isn't fast enough, how my iPod keeps dying, how my BB sucks (lol, couldn't resist!), I think about how some people don't even have electricity and heat for their entire lives. My life might be depressing to me, but I suppose many others would fight to be in my place. And each time I think about how depressing my life can be, I'm gonna remind myself to be thankful for everything I have - a loving God who will never forsake me, a family who is always faithful and loving, a boyfriend who constantly dotes on me and listens to me whine, and friends who stick around with me no matter what. And I remind myself that I am truly lucky to be here, right where I am.

Wow how did a little complaining about my mundane life turn out to be such a long chunk of words? Hahaha. Okay time for a little studying and some New Girl :) May 3rd just hurry come already, haha. Hate how I'm so full of contradictions sometimes.

I hope Monday has been kind to you all! To my NUS & NTU friends, hang in there, your break is coming soon! To my UB friends, chin up, we're just three weeks away from our holiday (just try to forget Summer is coming up after that, hehe).

Have a good week y'all, x.

Light up, light up/As if you have a choice

Snow Patrol - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easy way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear